“But I learned that moving on is where I must begin”
I’ve said it far too many times before when I know I damn well shouldn’t have. But this time, is the last time.
Love this ninja forever and a day. Been best friends since we were six, she’s practically family. Lord knows I wouldn’t know what to do without her. Not everyone is lucky enough to have a real genuine best friend, someone who is there all the time no matter what. I couldn’t be more thankful for her.
Today is suppose to be a special day and a great day. And some how it’s managing to be everything but that. I just want to cry. Sigh this sucks.
Things just haven’t been like they use to be. Everything was going along smoothly and swell. Lately it’s been okay. But nothing like before. I keep trying to do my part in making it better and back to normal, but it’s hard if I’m the only one making that effort. It’s gotta be both parties. Hanging in there the best I can. I keep telling myself it’ll be worth it but man idk anymore, seems to be getting tougher. It’s like the more I know this is what I want the more I push it away unintentionally. Agh..
If you really “love” someone like you claim to, how hard is it really to put that particular person first and as a main priority in your life?! It shouldn’t be hard at all right? Right. I didn’t think so.
Idk man. I guess just because you treat someone the way you want to be treated doesn’t necessarily mean they are going to do the same. Even though they should be without hesitation.
Giving way more than what I’m getting back. It’s a bummer. I’m not asking for much either…